Feelings.

I decided to weigh myself this morning. I was 1 lb up. I don't know. I know you shouldn't be basing everything on a number on the scale but come on. Do you see how much i've been working out and how little food cheats I've had in the last month!?! It's a record for me! I feel like I should've lost more weight by now. Soooo I reached out to a nutritionist. She was the one used in Agency Wars. She does online coaching and I'm just curious what it costs. If it's manageable, I may take her up on her services. I mean, I have a blog that details every F-in exercise I do and food I eat, I'm a dream to them! Maybe she can tell me what I'm doing wrong. If I need to exercise more, i'll have no life. Really. So it has to be the food I eat. I suspect my calorie intake is too high? I eat fairly healthy but even a huge portion of veggies has calories at the end of the day. I also don't eat meat. I'm really trying to make up for it by adding more protein shakes but is it enough? I really don't want to have to start eating meat purely to lose weight. I've also been making sure to get plenty of water daily. I don't drink anything else. I need help. I'm not going another Summer without being where I want to be. Last Summer was the first Summer ever since pre-teen years that I actually wore a sleeveless shirt in public. I know, shocking. This year I want to up it and wear shorts! hah. I haven't worn shorts sincccce hmmm, I think the last one I remember I was 11 or 12. I don't want to hate Summer, I want to enjoy it. It's sad that weight can make you not enjoy it but it's true. Going outside in pants and a t-shirt is uncomfortable as hell.

To my friends who read this: Betcha didn't know I was this crazy did ya?? :) Well I am, get over it.

Wednesday

Sore from exercise. It's all good though.

9:15 a.m: 2 rice cakes with 1/2 avocado

12:00 p.m: A really small portion of this tomato/feta salad that was leftover at work.

1:30 p.m: Leftover from last night. Didn't finish it all, MK helped a bit. Still, it was a lot and now I'm full.

3:00 p.m: 3 squares of 85% dark chocolate.

Exercise (6:15 p.m): 1 hr boot camp

7:30 p.m: Protein drink

9:00 p.m: An egg salad I made. 2 hard boiled eggs, fresh chopped spinach, green onion, little bit of cottage cheese, dijon mustard, S&P. Good!

I think I've been doing really well at having home cooked meals every single day and making sure I get my protein. Yea!!

11:00 p.m: Banana

Tuesday

8:00 a.m: Banana

11:45 a.m: 1 rice cake with the last of the cashew butter

12:15 p.m: Leftover from last night's dinner. There is tons of leftover sandwiches on the tables at work. Meeting. If I ate meat, I'd have one now. Luckily, the last veggie option was taken. See, not eating meat can work to your benefit. Saved some unnecessary calories!

3:00 p.m: 2 rice cakes with 1/2 avocado spread over them.

I've maxed my rice cake limit for the day.

4:30 p.m: Apple

Exercise (6:15 p.m): 1 hr boot camp

7:30 p.m: Protein drink

9:00 p.m: some cottage cheese

10:00 p.m: Spaghetti squash. Coconut oil, cauliflower, broccoli, tomato, onion, spinach, curry powder.

Monday

7:30 a.m: 2 hard boiled eggs

12:30 p.m: Big lunch. Spinach with some dressing. Sushi (avocado and sweet potato rolls) and then a small egg salad wrap with spinach.

3:00 p.m: Apple and rice cake with cashew butter.

5:00 p.m: 1 timbit!

Exercise (6:15 p.m): 1 hr boot camp. It was good. Felt strong today.

7:30 p.m: Protein drink

9:00 p.m: Banana, a few dates

10:00 p.m: Damn these late dinners. Boot camp and travel and then cooking, this is what happens. Anyway, this is spinach fried with onion and coconut oil. Quinoa. Oven baked sweet potato, cauliflower and broccoli with olive oil. I put tahini over it all. Added a nice flavour.

The idea of moving to another country is getting more and more attractive. It's not that I hate it here, I'm just bored. I don't want to be one of those people who just work every day and nothing changes. I want to at least see the world. I want to work at a coffee shop in Paris and make enough money to live in a small place on my own. Too much to ask? I thought of other places. I hate Americans so no U.S, Asia scares me on my own, Paris is just beautiful. Ugh. The googling has started. I should take French classes, that'd be first step. If all else fails, I would know French.

Sunday

12:00 p.m: Kale, spinach, mushroom, onion fried in coconut oil. Egg salad made of 2 eggs, dijon mustard, green onion, S&P, cottage cheese. Not too bad.

2:00 p.m: Parents house. I want to leave and I've been here 5 minutes. 

4:00 p.m: Banana

Exercise (6:45 p.m): Spent 45 mins at the gym. Meh. Boring when no one is there to motivate you. Miss my boot camp. Back at it tomorrow.

7:45 p.m: Exact same dinner as last night. Soup and brussel sprouts.

9:15 p.m: protein shake with stuff in it.

Good news!

I weighed myself and I've lost the 5 lbs I gained during the damn holidays. yesssss!

I think my goal is 20 more. I think that would be a healthy not too skinny weight for me. This girl doesn't do skinny. I will forever aim to have curves!