Weak.

I've been working out consistently for well over two years now. There's no doubt about it, I've changed both physically and mentally. There is one thing though that I feel has not changed at all. I still appear weak.

Where is this coming from? I tell ya.

Last night's boot camp was a challenge to get a huge list of stuff done in one hour. They were standard exercises. Stuff like kettle bell swings, MMA push ups, frog leaps, burpees, dead lifts, chest press.. a whole bunch. You had to do 30 of each. It's all good and fine but why do I always come out last? ALWAYS. There's no way I can ever get these done in an hour. Few people do get it done, which is fair. It's always the extra fit girls. I'm not saying I fail miserably, I get through about 80% of it. Why am I always so F-ing slow? There's girls that I see that seem like they're new to this and they fly through it.

Here is my thought.

I use heavy weights. I don't skimp out and go for 5 pounders. I will start with 10 on each hand at all times. I also always make sure I am using proper form. The exercise means nothing if you're doing it wrong.  Because of this, I am slow.

So you know what? No, I'm not weak. F you other girls. The point is I'm doing what I can. At the end of each class, I come out drenched in sweat. That's more than I can say for the other lululemon clad "Let's go for a Starbucks after this" girls. Hmph!

Sorry, I had to rant about that one.